#I'M RAMBLING i just have sooooooo many thoughts

[anomura]

i've already said this but i reeeeeeeally think john should be more tormented by internalized homophobia. like he's obviously less repressed than gale and to me has done/still does things with men but that doesn't mean he doesn't struggle with it. i mean he shows signs of being kinda miserable even before the stalag and i don't think he likes himself very much so being queer is just Another Thing on his list of reasons why he's not Good. i'd say he doesn't hate himself because of his queerness necessarily it's more of a Ah Yes of course. everything about me is wrong. figures this would be too.

i think the best way to put it is that he probably views his sexuality how he views his excessive drinking: not something to be proud of but he will keep doing it bc he's impulsive and it feels good in the moment. and then he'll beat himself up about it afterwards

[satoruxx]

RHEYAAA MY LOVE <333333 i am here with a cup of tea and a bunch of treats for you 🍵🍰🍦🍮

…. and some selfship questions :3c

OK SOOOOOOO I HAVE TO ASK . ABOUT KAEYA AND DILUC . I LOVE THEM SO BAD I LOVE YOU SO BAD……. i’d love to know about your love languages!! for both ships!!!!! how do you show them you care, and how do they show you they care? <33 also, what is your relationship with their brother like in each respective selfship?? do you get along? :3

and then . gojo ….. (idk if you selfship with shoko at all but this question absolutely goes for her too if so!!) what do you do for each other when you’re having a rough day?? :’)

ily rheya <333 take as much time as you need with this i got . a little carried away with the questions 😭 BUT I’D LOVE TO HEAR ABT ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING YOU WANNA SHARE <33333 sending you so many kisses and hugs!!!!!!

ARIIII HI AGAIN !!!! gratefully accepting all the treats pls come sit with me so we can share them and cuddle <333

giggling and kicking my feet at all these questions i love you so so much !!!! buckle in bc this got much longer than i expected it to...

OKAY FIRST MY FAV TRAGIC BROTHER DUO

me n kaeya....bicker a lot lmao !! but that's how we show affection :33 i think both of us would be very big on quality time !! kaeya would also lean towards a lot of physical touch bc he's a silly lil guy that can't keep his hands to himself <33

as for me n diluc...i think diluc is a very acts of service type of guy !! he doesn't say a lot but he shows affection by doing things for me which is so sweet :33 as for me i think i'd be a big physical touch girlie with him (i won't let go of him he's probably so tired of me LMAO)

i can't see myself being on truly bad terms with either brother since both selfships are a childhood friends to lovers trope hehe !! so i wouldn't be able to hate either of them <///3 when i'm with kaeya i would be on courteous terms with diluc, mostly a hello how are you type thing (which makes me a lil sad since we were all close when we were kids) but diluc has chosen to remain distant.

but when i'm with diluc i'd be on really good terms with kaeya since he's always hanging around angel's share and stuff (and i think kaeya would be more eager to talk to me than diluc would be) !! hopefully that makes sense i feel like i just rambled....

NOW ONTO JJK

i won't lie me n satoru have the most thought out relationship out of all my selfships bc i've quite literally been thinking about him for four years now. when i'm having a rough day satoru is on a mission to cheer me up, but won't ever admit it. he'll subtly do things to make me happy like playfully annoy me or take me to do things i enjoy !!

as for if he's in a bad mood, i'd just get him things he likes (like sweets) and tease him until he's grinning and teasing back. i think we'd have a very bickering heavy relationship so i know he's all better when he's got that dynamic back (a couple of hugs and kisses here and there wouldn't hurt either) <33

this might sound weird but we don't necessarily talk about our bad days/things we struggle with. it's more so a type of thing where we can just tell that smth is wrong, and the best way to deal with that is just be present. so basically actions over words and we never bring it up again lmao...

shoko and i are very different. i am 100% more clingy with her so if i'm having a bad day she will let me cuddle with her or just stay attached to her hip until i'm better. she'll probably act all teasy and semi exasperated but i'd like to think she doesn't mind :33

and if she's having a bad day she usually won't admit it so i'll do my best to make her laugh. find me ripping the cigarettes away from her and smothering her with a whole bunch of kisses <////3

i'm so sorry ari bby i ended up ranting a lot but this was so much fun to talk about !! tysm for sending them in i'm smooching you until you're tired of me :33

also pls pls pls tell me about your selfships i'm so curious !! who do you selfship with ari ?? tell me all about them <33333

[thewolvesof1998]

Hi Wolf 💕💕💕

Please share more about headcanons or any other thoughts you have related to Eddie’s dog tags :)

Hi 🪐!!!

So here are the three that I've already sent to @malewifediaz: Buck and Chris wearing Eddie's dog tags after he's gone missing and is presumed dead, Buck railing Eddie into the mattress and the dog tags hanging there between them/Eddie's hand coming up to Buck's chest, and he feels the tags underneath Buck's shirt and the one that I'm turning into my first Christmas Fic mistake identity- Buck is wearing Eddie’s tags when he gets hurt

But I have sooooooo many thoughts- it all started because Amanda wrote a fic i’ll bandage up your body and your bones and your bad days too and in it Buck's wearing Eddie's dog tags:

Buck, who’s halfway through a 24. Buck, who has Eddie’s dogtags around his neck and tucked beneath his uniform shirt. 

And I haven't stopped thinking about it since and if I can get Buck wearing Eddie's dog tags in all of my fics I will. Here are a few thoughts that have been bouncing around my head since then:

Eddie and Shannon don't get married when she gets pregnant, Eddie still runs away to the army to "support his child" between tours one and two, Eddie comes home to El Paso and has a hard time adjusting, Chris doesn't know him, his family is hard on him, he gets on well enough with Shannon though she still is like I need a partner. Anyway, he meets Buck who's in his ranch hand era, they have a steamy whirlwind romance and when Eddie goes back to Afghanistan he gives Buck his dog tags. Buck moves on to LA - because he thinks it's over with Eddie (which is kinda is as they leave it on a bad note). Eddie gets injured and discharged and when he gets back to El Paso is hurt to find Buck's left. He and Shannon move to LA to co-parent and help Shannon's mother, Eddie joins the LAFD and runs into Buck - who is still wearing his dog tags- which's revealed later at the angstiest time. - this one would be super long so I'm not going to be writing it anytime soon- if I ever do but I do think its juicy.

Young Buck and Eddie (kinda similar to above) where they're both broke so instead of proposing with a ring, Eddie uses his dog tags- instead.

Historical Buddie- Buck and Eddie meet during WW2 and fall in love, they exchange dog tags before they get separated. They both return to their lives afterwards- no way to find each other- a few years pass and they run into each other- they're still wearing each others tags.

Eddie has a lot of complicated thoughts about his tours and his tags, one day he's going through the box he keeps in his closet, its got his silver star and dog tags and some photos of his friends. Buck finds him siting on his bed with the stuff. Buck shows some interest in the tags and Eddie suggest that he wears them. Buck puts them on and Eddie loves it, loves having his name on Buck-basically its a possessive Eddie fic

Established Buddie, Buck wears Eddie's dog tags at work and it's five times Eddie sees his tags on Buck and it turns him on/he loves it and one time he shows Buck how much he likes it kinda thing- Like they're at a call and the tags slip out from Buck's shirt and someone has been flirting with Buck so Eddie goes over to him and tucks them back in and basically stakes his claim.

I'm just obsessed so thanks for letting me ramble about this!

Mwah <3<3<3

[lunicho]

hi bunny! it’s me again 🍑 anon.. i wanted to give longer time between messages but i was remember that seongbin and seongmo have their own soundcloud accs where they have posted solo music (predebut?) and it’s soo good.. of course i’m especially obsessed with seongbin’s.. 82major has their own soundcloud account too u might already know all of this but when i was there listening to illegal and some of seongbin’s stuff i found they released a song called “noona”?? 😭😭 anyways… also at work.. 🤭 thinking about himbo seongbin and listening to his songs and thinking about (and pls forgive me if ur not into this.. and i’m also not going to articulate it well at all) but seongbin being intimidated by his gf being strong and smart and wanting to be more dominant in the relationship but when he does have to ask her for help he’s so shy and meek about it and says silly teasing things to try to keep the upper hand.. forgive me for not being able to elaborate any further and also i think i was expecting to go in a more toxic!seongbin direction with this thought but.. i’m so sorry for this rambling but my main point was that if u haven’t checked out his and seongmo’s soundclouds u def should!! (and if u have i wanna know what u think cuz their style is sooooooo😵‍💫)

i actually didn't know about their soundclouds! i'm like never the most caught up person when it comes to groups and like their content and stuff so this is actually very new information to me! i need to go and listen to their songs on there fs cuz i just knoww it's all so good. also seongbin with the noona song?? 😭 seongbin milf hunter i see i see 😭

i think im catching ur drift here i think i think.. so like seongbin tries to maintain the upper hand with you because he's not ready to let go and submit, he tries so hard to be all cocky with you but it doesn't really work. but he gets so needy and has to come to u for help and when u do help him out u treat him like a little princess, doting on him, praising him, calling him all kinds of cutesy names and stuff like that and it just fucks with him a little cuz he's like "why is this not working" like he makes so many slick comments, trying so hard to affect you more than ur affecting him but it doesn't work and he really just ends up sounding so pathetic :(

i could see him being the type to try and act like things aren't affecting him but he's so hyper aware of where your hands are on his body, your fingertips light a fire on his skin and he's just so jumpy and reactive and kinda super sensitive. i feel like he'd be quite vocal as well, letting out grunts and shaky moans but he'd try to keep that all in but u can tell by the way his cock keeps twitching that he's so turned on and he's going so crazy here 😭 also toxic seongbin 👀 im listening im listening (if u have more thoughts ofc)

also i will definitely have to listen to their soundclouds and i'll let yk when i do!!

[digital-corruption]

Hello

🚨🚨SPOILERS🚨🚨

I have a theory about duskwood which I wanted to share with someone but none of my friends play duskwood and if I post many people won't know soooooo

I hope you don't mind

When we ask richy about Jennifer Hanson, he asks us why we asked him. And then confesses to like us.

He also said he never wanted things to escalate the way they did.

Sooooooo

What if the threats he sent us actually had good intention? I mean, he didn't want us to get involved in the mess because he didn't want us to get hurt or him having to hurt us? But couldn't say so directly? (For some reason? Idk)

I am not sure if y'all already know this or this had been implied in the main story.

But the thought crossed my mind.

Hello! You are more than welcome to share theories! 😊 I'm going to put this behind a cut on the off chance someone hasn't finished the game.

Given Richy’s reasoning at the end as to why he did what he did, it definitely lines up with his character that he was threatening us with the intention of trying to discourage us from getting involved. After all, he wasn't responsible for our number being sent. We're an innocent bystander in his eyes.

By the end we learn Richy has a twisted way of seeing his threats as motivators to do the "right" thing, but it never works out how he intended. The problem is, he doesn't try a different tactic. He just keeps using the same method somehow expecting a better result the next time he uses it. He wasn't expecting us to be so enraged by his threats to keep going. Now he had outsiders involved, way more people than he had anticipated, or could "handle" - not that he ever had a handle on the situation.

As soon as there was a body, Richy had a choice to stop, but he decided to perpetuate the lie in an attempt to absolve himself of any wrongdoing. "It wasn’t me, it was the Man Without a Face!" Many of his actions had good intent in his eyes. He was trying to get justice for the past, but for the selfish reason of clearing his guilt. It makes him tragic; he is entirely responsible for his undoing.

I rambled there quite a bit. 😅 I hope it made sense.

[marnz]

I watched tsn last year because my memory suddenly remember that i used to see photos and gifs of it in 2016 and i read someone blog analyzing the relationship of mark and eduardo (in 2016) but didn't know it was a fb film, so i decided to watch it, to be honest my brain is pretty damage from working corporate job and seeing how nasty capitalism is, so my first thought watching it wasn't really wow gay, eduardo was in love!!! but was more like wow mark is such a jerk, i didn't see anything gay that people were screaming about 🙃 and being reminded that this is zuckerberg and his old friend irl did not help, and i also read the story of what actually happened irl and understand how eduardo was also a jerk too so i just jumped into ao3 to read fanfic, i actually wish i watched it during highschool or college time more because i truly can't consume queerbait series or films that aren't obvious anymore, normal queer film/tv series is fine tho. This is just my own experience i'm sure there are many tsn new fans who watched it and also enjoy how "gay" it is like you guys in 2010 too :) i just have damaged brain i think

oh no friend I’m so sorry about your job! Let’s get you a better one. I don’t think your reaction is wrong at all, like I said, it was a different time and you had to be there. I got into it in college and exited the fandom in the mid 2010s; I would never in my life get into it now. I think you are right…it’s 2024.

However I have been thinking about this since I got your message and I also think the constant analysis and the fanfic contributed pretty heavily to the atmosphere, plus like I said the Andrew Garfield of it all. Honestly I think the fandom boils down to a couple things:

1) the film has homoerotic subtext mostly evidenced by Eduardo. There’s a lot of time spent on Eduardo’s feelings about Mark, like even during the bathroom blowjob scene the camera takes a moment to remind us that Eduardo is thinking about Mark in the next stall. There is almost no time spent on Mark’s feelings about Eduardo. So this subtext is like, there are feelings and they are unreciprocated. Isn’t this so tragic when 0.03% happens? Mark certainly talks a lot about his feelings for Eduardo, but words do not matter. Action matters. Contrast this with a more classic queerbait like Sterek where 1) there was queerbaiting market and 2) there was reciprocal homoerotic subtext that could never be acted upon.

2) I don’t think fandom is super good at dealing with an unlikeable or unsympathetic yet compelling protagonist! Which means this protagonist is rendered much more sympathetically in fic and people watch or read the media source with rose colored glasses. “He would not fucking say that” x1000.

3) I’m not that much older than you I think but…there was this period in tv where there were canon gays who were as interesting and dynamic as a pool noodle and, meanwhile, in subtext and/or queerbait land, there were relationships that consistently got a lot of time and attention and so were sooooooo compelling. And those are the relationships that I, and fandom, tend to gravitate towards. Plus growing up there weren’t a ton of happy gay stories so instead it was like, you have Brokeback Mountain, you have Dead Poets Society, you have What Happened to Lani Granger? You have, for some reason, Glee (boring except for faberry and Santana). Thank god we are not there anymore.

4) I have bad taste <3

Anyway sorry for rambling here, your asks got me thinking because it very much was like hmm well yeah it IS completely inexplicable huh but I think a lot of fandom is like that.

[theflyingfeeling]

Aaahhh I love the new header!! 🤧😍💞

Anyway just dropping by to talk about this thought I have 👀 so I have this scenario in my mind where Olli and Allu have been crushing on each other for a while and one of them breaks up with their partner and gets heartbroken and the other of course feels bad for him and comforts him but can’t stop thinking about how he has a chance now and aaaaaa my brain feels foggy and it’s not working but I feel like there would be so many ways to continue this 🤧 (sorry for rambling 😭)

I love it too if I say so myself 🥺🤲

I know this sounds like I'm making shit up but literally earlier today I thought about almost this exact scenario 😂 only mine was a tad more specific, and bear with me now, because for some reason I imagined a wedding (perhaps a crew members') and one of them arriving there a bit late because they had a fight and broke up with their partner just before leaving for the wedding venue (or the night before) and yeahhhhh, they end up comforting each other at the evening party of the wedding reception 👀

don't ask me why the setting has to be a wedding lol, I'm not sure actually, it just came to my mind for some reason because that's how my brain works, although it might have been inspired by an old picture taken at a wedding I saw last night while browsing Porko's or Niko's instagram, in which Olli looked sooooooo good in a white collar shirt and black suspenders and yeahhhh, just imagine the possiblities of them getting all hot and bothered in their wedding gear, all loose ties and unbuttoned shirts and messy hair and oofff mmmhmhhhhmmhm 😳

obviously in this scenario both of them have secretly been crushing on each other for quite some time, including the one who just broke up with their partner, and perhaps that was even one of the reasons they broke up (maybe the partner noticed something or the other was being distant), so it wouldn't be a "bandage" kinda situation you know, instead they'd both be like aahhhh finallyyyyy 😭

thanks for rambling in my askbox once again! 🥰💖

[vodkacranberrywitch]

Baaaaaaabe thank you sooooooo much for the Halle and Jonah reading! I think the reason why so many people seem interested in seeing them get together is due to the chemistry they have! The chemistry even just during the press interviews for the movie, just the way they interact with each other. I mean...no wonder people are suspecting something between them!

Also something very interesting I've noticed is that many tarot readers have actually pulled the ace of cups when doing a reading on them....including you! So it's definitely not just social media assumptions and speculations! Something is definitely brewing between the two and honestly I'm here for it!

Obviously we don't know any of these people/celebrities personally and we can only speculate but honestly DVD (DDG) seems like a nice guy, a lil corny but overall a nice guy but to me Jonah is a better match.

I don't hate DVD but I do think Jonah would be a better match for her emotionally lol. Sorry for rambling, thanks again for doing these tarot readings for free love. 💕💖💓

I'm glad you enjoyed it! I really like DDG too, but when I watched videos of him and Halle they seemed very different lol. I'm looking forward to their reading. I thought they broke up a month ago.

[swtorpadawan]

ZEP!

fandom meme Z - Just ramble about something fan-related, go go go (prompts optional but encouraged) Specific to SWTOR in particular and Star Wars in general, I think something that contributes to the divisions in the fandom is the sheer number of writers and creators who've contributed to building this fandom for the past 45 years. The moment George Lucas licensed other people to create in his universe, he opened this floodgate. And that's fine - as far as I'm concerned, he's forfeited his right to say what is and is not "Star Wars", long before he sold the whole thing to Disney. Don't get me wrong - there was a lot to love in the EU. But there was a lot that wasn't very good. There were sooooooo many "conflicting canon" issues… and at one point the primary focus of the writers seemed to be an obsession over who Jaina Solo's boyfriend should be. (I'm fine with it going to Jag. But given that Jaina was rather young at the time this was going on, it shouldn't have been such a deal with the writers.) I don't hate Disney Canon. I don't. I just wish they'd taken the opportunity to tell a more consistent story. The modern the result is, we now see people who can ignore 98 percent of the content of Star Wars and point to one incident that one writer wrote in one book and say "See? The Jedi are just as bad as the Sith!" That's… skewed. I understand the projection. But it throws me sometimes.

E - Have you added anything cracky/hilarious to your fandom, if so, what Rex (From TCW/Rebels) is in my Halcyon Legacy in SWTOR. He's nominally retired as a soldier, and is the bartender at the Alliance cantina on Odessen.

I dunno… I thought it was funny.

P - Invent a random AU for any fandom (we always need more ideas)

I'm the worst at this. I've seen some "detective Noir" AUs, some medeival fantasy AUs, some steampunk…

I guess Star Wars during the fall of the Bronze Age? That might be a niche interest.

Thanks for the asks!

[kate-m-art]

Okay sooooooo what if I just rambled for a while about Siren AU because it's been in my drafts forever?

ajsjsjdjd okay okay this is stupid but hear my out, sirens lament au for the Hero of Legend. If you don't know, Sirens Lament was a webtoon I used to love and ajskd gosh I still adore the lore ajsjd

Basically the sirens are cursed, they were people who had a broken heart and were lured into the ocean by a siren song. The siren sings, kisses the person who has a broken heart and the curse is transferred, with the siren becoming human again and starting a new life and the broken hearted person losing their memories and becoming a siren themselves. They're left to roam the oceans until they can find someone to pass the curse onto themselves for a chance at a new life. Idk, with just how badly Koholint affected this guy I've always thought the vibe fit.

Arin let me ramble about this for a while a couple months ago and we thought up a couple ideas, so mainly the AU would go:

-Link grew up on Koholint Island as a normal resident. He lived a pretty happy life and and was sweet on his friend Marin

-one day tradegy strikes (I'm thinking it's because Link wasn't able to stop it, probably by monsters) and Marin passes. I don't know if it was just Marin or if the village was destroyed as well during the attack

-Link is absolutely heartbroken and feels like it was his fault, the pains too much and he ends up taking a sirens deal

-Then he's just wandering the ocean, having no idea where he came from or even what his name is. Sirens are effectively immortal, so who knows how many years he wandered for. He has no intention of passing on his curse though, he doesn't want anyone else to have to go through what hes had to.

-not all sad though, Link likes to learn stories and observe people. He loves singing as well, and has an angelic voice (I'll link a vid at the bottom of this post lol) He messes with ships and has a passtime of scaring sailors or those who come too close curious about his singing.

-For main storyline we jump to a coastal town where there's rumors about a monster that lurks in the nearby sea caves. There's one girl however who isn't afraid (Malon, the farmers daughter.) She often goes near there to listen to the otherworldly, melancholy melodies. They'll even sing together at times.

-Then you know, they eventually meet and,, Link has a friend again for the first time in who knows how long and Malon realizes the "monster" maybe isn't so otherworldly as everyone thought

There's more thoughts, like "Link" being the name he's chosen for himself (he saw it on some sunken items ones that should have been familiar and decided he liked it,,) Legend sharing his stories with Malon (ones he's picked up and,,, maybe ones about his own travels eventually as well), them loving to sing together (cave acoustics pretty) Malon giving him the first gentle physical contact he's had in years, feelings starting to grow but,,, things can only develop so far when he's determined not to pass his curse on to anyone TvT,,, someone he cares about losing their memories and basically their life would be a nightmare to him.

I think there were still a few more thoughts somewhere Arin and I had but ill stop there for now. Anyways yeah! If you read this far thanks for listening to me ramble lol. I care this au a lot as silly as it is TvT

(Also links voice HC for this au:)

[mochiwrites]

M O C H I I AM IN YOUR INBOX AND I AM HEAR TO SHOUT I HAVE THE CHAPTER PULLED UP I HAVE COFFEE I HAVE NOT MEDICATED AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH Who gave you the RIGHT

That FRAME and CANVAS metaphor my HEART. How DARE. God. Giant hole where Grian is. I knew what was coming, sort of. I had a lot of suspicions confirmed. I AM SHAKING YOU. THE WAY YOU TWISTED THAT FAMILY FOLDER TOO???? That mumbo DIDNT click on it but Scar did only to have it be. MMMMMMMMMM WHAT I WAS??????? SHAKING YOU

The GB. The way they've infiltrated the town right under everyone's noses. Oh goddddddddddddddddd I am so FULL of dread. And then to introduce them through Martyn AND JIMMY AHHHH I KNEW IT AND also introduce the listeners in that way??? I am vibrating.

I have so many thoughts about Martyn, Grian, and Jimmy I'm. MMMMMMMM. The self-hatred of the fact that they blame themselves for Grian's disappearance where in reality they would have probably been taken too. Listening to the two of them be so full of guilt when Scar and Mumbo are feeling guilty for doing all of this behind Grian's back [THE PARALLELS]. The fact that Scott and Ren are also involved to varying degrees is driving me insane too like. Ren is mostly here because Martyn knows a lot but Scott is here because HE knows a lot and that being mirrored across the table onto Scar and Mumbo who have the closest connection to the watchers but the least amount of info IM

GOD 'You aren't genuine. No one ever is' AND NOW NO ONE CAN BE SURE IF GRIAN IS, INCLUDING GRIAN HIMSELF IM GONNA GO MAD. The way we're connecting back to something at the beginning of the story i am CHOMPING at the BIT

And I KNEW the second we saw Grian by himself nothing good was gonna be happening. This is why I sent 'biting you' btw. This whole scene with helen made the hair on the back of neck stand up. The way it has even Grian himself doubting himself is INSANE. AUGH. g o d I hope I can write like this some day.

And then to have him go home and Scar and Mumbo just got back from a meeting where they defended Grian and swore he couldn't possibly be WORKING with the watchers and he only JUST got pearl back and now NO ONE can know if Grian is actually working with them AND! AND!!!! THERE'S ALSO THE CHANCE THAT THEY'VE DONE THE SAME THING TO PEARL AGGGGGH. I am SCREAMING. GOD.

Well done. I am still shaking you.

EHEHEHEHE~ I’m using your ask as an excuse to ramble about certain things in the new fic ty <3

RIGHT SO. THE FRAME & CANVAS METAPHOR — I had so much fun writing that, esp because it works so well as a metaphor??? scar has just enough information for this bare bones skeleton of a theory. he doesn’t have all of the pieces together, but he’s trying so hard to create an image with the things he’s got (which isn’t a lot). so boom. the perfect metaphor <3

and ehehe, it was so funny seeing people freaking out over the folder — esp when I knew from the start what was going to be inside it :>

GOD MARTYN AND JIMMY. THEY. OKAY??? THEY MAKE ME SOOOOOOO. they knew the old grian. they’re the last pieces of grian’s past. they’ve been through fucking hell. they feel guilty. martyn even more so. he’s the oldest of the trio. he feels like he failed grian, as well as jimmy.

martyn looks at himself as the older brother. and yet he failed to protect both grian and jim. he feels like it’s his fault he and jimmy ended up with the listeners. and so when martyn spoke about them… it wasn’t just guilt for grian he was feeling.

and then enter ren and scott and… oof. scott was absolutely involved because he has information, but also he was there to be a rock for jimmy. as for ren… ren’s been involved since the very beginning. see, when the cops busted the listeners, jimmy had a family to come home to (lizzie). but martyn? he had no one.

the night the listeners were broken up, martyn found himself at a restaurant. and the owner of that restaurant became his world.

but it drives me insane, how close scar and mumbo are to the watchers because of their connection to grian. and yet… they know next to nothing. it’s almost kind of fun though. because you as the reader get to connect the pieces alongside them :>

as for that scene with grian, MAN was that a blast to write :D stel and I have had that one planned since like. June lmao. it was literally written in my notes “grian gets gaslit” but so!! that whole exchange took a bit of work to hit the way I wanted it to, esp with grian doubting himself as well. but that’s the thing about memories, yeah?

enough time goes by and well… the details start to seem a bit hazy :)

but that ending… I almost didn’t write it. I almost ended the one shot with helen’s little “we’ve got work to do” line. but then I thought against it and threw in that little thing at the end there.

so you get this like… almost tender moment between the three of them as their whole world starts to come crashing down around them.

anyways yeah !!! this one was a ton of fun to write :3 it was definitely a long time coming, and I hope the answers satisfied a lot of questions that crime enjoyers have had since the start <3

[haldenlith]

Random thoughts 2: electric boogaloo

I need to start giving these nice titles and make this a series, with how many random thoughts I have.

I've also probably said this one already before, but I have mental illness brain, so I have shit-for-short-term memory. Also, forgive my extra rambleness if there is any. I'm basically vibrating on caffeine and sleep deprivation. I'll be crashing shortly.

Our dumbass babe, Astarion, laments briefly that as a vampire spawn, he has "all of the hunger, few of the powers." Yet, I thought about it, and realized that there are magical approximations to most of the powers of a "True Vampire." Of note, all of this is ignoring the Arcane Trickster "wizard spells only" restriction. I'm basically imagining that if he already knew magic, it'd be possible to teach a singular spell from another discipline to him, if we're talking about in world and not game mechanics. Also, we're going to assume he has the ability to have claws (as he should) and is just too much of a prissy diva to use them.

Vampire's Mist Form? Gaseous Form, Wind Walk, or could even go discount-approximation with Misty Step. MS isn't really a perfect alternative, though, as it's more of a teleport.

Okay, what about turning into a bat? Hmmm... I suppose the easiest answer is Polymorph.

Summon bats/rats/wolves? Conjure Animals.

Regeneration? I mean.... Astarion's supposed to have this, anyway, as a vampire spawn, but we'll roll with it, because I get why he doesn't (that would make him such a broken-OP companion). This one's a little trickier since while there is a literal "Regenerate" spell, the spell components I, noticed, were a problem. The prayer wheel? Unimportant, not an issue. The other component (aside from spoken incantation)? Holy water. Now that IS a problem for Astarion, because being undead, holy water I imagine is still pretty harmful to him. If it's just having it in your possession, I suppose he could be very careful with it, but if it has to actually be used, that'd cancel out the spell, since it'd be Radiant damage. ALL THAT SAID, it also depends on the tadpole, because with the tadpole, Astarion is uniquely unaffected by Radiant damage. Sooooooo.... it's complicated. All that aside, it's also a fairly high level druid/cleric/bard spell at level 7, so it'd be a problem he'd have to solve at a later date, when he can find someone of sufficient skill to teach him, anyway. (If he even could, given that two of those has a possibility of wanting to stake him on sight.)

Spider Climb? Again, another thing he's supposed to already have, and I really wished they let him keep. That said, there's a spell literally of the same name, and it's fairly low level. Problem solved.

Charm? Charm Person. Or, if you wanna get real spicy with it, and mimic the bond a True Vampire has with a Spawn, except do it with anyone, Dominate Person is right there as a 5th level spell.

But what if we don't assume he has claws: Well, okay, fine. If we assume he's just a slightly faster, slightly deadlier elf with sharp teeth and an allergy to running water, and without the tadpole: sunlight (I mean, that's what he is at that point, if we strip claws/regen/spider climb from him), there's always Alter Self.

Ignoring the mechanics stuff (ie the Legendary Action shit), that's it. That's your Discount True Vampire spell pack. The only thing truly locked out to Astarion is turning people. So, really, Astarion doesn't need to drink Cazador's blood. All he needs is to put in some work hitting the books and listening to people, and hell, he could be equal to, or honestly, better than Cazador. All that and he could set the bastard's britches on fire with a Z-snap of his pale fingers.

[browneyes-issac]

I felt like doing one of this, since on most of the apps I use don't have a pinned post option, so I'm taking advantage of it! 🤣🤷‍♀️

About me? 🤔

My name is Lotus as shown all big when ya look at my profile.. 😆

Pronouns are she/her

I'm 20. I've always been such a old soul, always have gotten way better along with people older then me. Probably why I have always had crushes on people older then me by any age gap.. 🤭😂

I tend to ramble on a lot when I am excited about something.. An example is, when I've reblogged people's stories on here, I tend to ramble ok about my favorite parts or something that reminds me of something in the story, etc.. I've always had a hard time putting things into a smaller amount of words of what I want to say.. So I do apologize to everyone I do that to and evryone that takes time to read my rambles on I do in general. 😆💞🙏

I am soooo shyyyy! 🙈😆 Like I love talking to people and interacting, etc.. But I'm sooo shy about saying what I am thinking or asking for help, etc..

My other socials if anyone wanted to follow or if I follow ya on ( not saying I've found anyone's account,lmao 😆 I mean for whenever someone I follow post about their other socials to follow, I thought I'd post what mine are since I mainly follow with my main, sooo no one will think a weirdo is following them..🤣 ) one since I don't have the same name as this, lol. Instagram: lotus_pod_02 & Star Wars- browneyes_501st_ Twitter: Lotus__Pod__02 & Star Wars browneyes-issac The ones with my actual name in is my main accounts, the ones I mainly follow on, even though I've been slacking with posting on both SW ones.. 🙈😆

Why the heck did I get this app, etc? 🤔📖

First off.. I'm blaming this on Pedro Pascal.. 😂🤭 Cause I fell in love with his goofy amazing handsome self watching The Madalorain and then falling for him in general... Then my dang tiktok somehow knew I was falling, and started showing Mando stuff and Pedro stuff in general.. Then I finally had enough of seeing people talking about this fanfic Rough Day.. So I went and googled it, saw it was on here got the app.. And the rest of history.. Cause I've absolutely have fallen in love with other people's view of Pedro's characters, it's unreal in a good way how much everyone does such a beautiful job of portraying them. 💞👏

But in other words.. I'm beyond so happy and greatful I did, cause these stories are sooooooo freaking amazing, badass, no words can really explain how amazing all of them are.. What everyone ( even ones I haven't read yet) do so amazing is the stories make me laugh, smile, all around in a good mood after reading them.. Because the writer does such an amazing job helping us feel like we are actually in the story... Something that some of my favorite books have never done. So a endless round of applause to tie writers of fanfiction. 💞👏👏💞

Other stuff... 🤗

DMs are alwaysssss open!! 💞🤗 I will always do my best to be there for people that come to me, even if I don't know them at all.. Treat you like you are my family. 💞 You can vent to me about anything ya want, everything will stay in our conversations.. Nothing talked about will see the light of the day. 💞

Pedro Pascal and Oscar Issac. 💞😌😍 My loves, my two favorite space goofballs, my comfort actors, and so many more things.. Cause they are they best part of my day when I see them on my screen or read about them ( fics or facts/interviews ).

My page is and will always be a safe place for anyone. 💞

Lastly.. Thank ya for reading all this way if you did.. 😂💞 I know I'm a crazy person and a dork.. But oh well.. 😆🤷‍♀️ I just wanted to do something like this.. Since I don't really have anything major to pin on my profile.. And this way people that come visit my page will know what they are getting into if they follow.. 😆🤷‍♀️💞

Love you all x infinityyyyy! 💞😙

[mysticpetals]

Ok! I can't stop myself! One more! 😁 “Did you know that you talk in your sleep?” and “Could you say that again?” “Were you not listening?” “No I was, I just like hearing your voice.” for Sophie Preston (MC) x Professor Benedict Reed from STW.

Budding feelings

Pairing: Benedict × MC (Sophie)

Genre: fluff

Words: 1.2k

Summary: Benedict realises that Sophie is much more that what she appears.

Prompts: "Did you know that you talk in your sleep?", "Could you say that again?", "We're you not listening?", "No I was, I just like hearing your voice."

Notes: I'm sooooooo sorryyyy this is so late! 😭😭 I've been too busy with exams and I couldn't find the time to write. To all the others in my inbox, I'm working on your requests and I'll post them when I can find the time to write. Until then, I hope you enjoy this!! 💖

Benedict Reed was a fair, no nonsense kind of man.

At least, that's what the students say about him when they think he's not around. Of course, some students say less than appropriate things as well but after so many years of being in this profession, he had learned how to ignore them.

He might be someone who appeared intimidating to others but he cared about his students and colleagues that were genuinely interested in his subject and wanted to learn more. Which was why he was on his way to Sophie Preston's office.

She was a shy young lady, whose talents and capabilities were overshadowed by her higher ups and Benedict often felt frustrated that someone as knowledgeable as her would be put up to the most mundane tasks by Miller.

He had been curious about her when she first requested to join the reading club and after a few sessions, he came to the conclusion that when given the chance, she got her opinion across to the others fairly well. And that's why he wanted to know why she hadn't been showing up for the last couple of meetings of the club.

It wasn't hard to do that once the classes had ended and there were only a few students and the staff left. He had asked his students to come a bit later than usual that day so he could check up on Sophie first.

He passed Professor Miller's office, whose reputation preceded even outside her own department. The door was closed and he only hoped that he wouldn't have to come across her.

Sophie's office door was partially open and Benedict hesitated. Does that mean she wasn't here? Maybe he should knock?

In the end he decided to knock thrice on the door. When he received no response, he slightly pushed the door open and came face to face with a sleeping Sophie.

She had her head in between her arms and didn't show any sign that she had heard him. A small smile crept up on his face as he looked at her peaceful expression. She was usually so tired and flustered, so it was a rare treat to see her so relaxed.

He heard a crash from the room next to her—Miller's office, he realised—and thought about what to do. If Miller came in when Sophie was asleep, there would be no doubt that she'd be enraged and Sophie would have to pay the price. So he decided that the best course of action was to wake her up, if only to save her from Miller's wrath.

He walked to her desk and sharply rapped his knuckles on the table. Sophie only moved slightly, mumbling about how she didn't want any more cake. As amusing as her sleep drunk ramblings were, he whispered her name sharply, trying to convey his sense of urgency.

She awoke with a start at the sound of her name and blinked her eyes. Benedict stepped back from her table and crossed his hands behind his back, trying to appear nonchalant.

"Professor Reed?" She shook herself awake and when she realised that he was actually in her office, she sat up with a start, banging her knee on her desk in the process.

He had to suppress a smile at her cursing and cleared his throat.

"Did you know that you talk in your sleep?"

Sophie looked at him horrified and he winced, realising that it probably wasn't the best way to start a conversation.

"No I didn't. I'm–I'm so sorry if I said something weird, I had no—"

"It's alright, Miss Preston. I didn't hear anything properly anyway," he paused, "and I thought we agreed on first names."

"Oh, right." Sophie looked away, embarrassed and just as he was about to say something, Professor Miller entered her office.

"Sophie! I'm going, make sure to—"

She stopped in the middle of her sentence, realising that they had an audience and schooled her annoyed features into a cool facade.

"Professor Reed, I didn't realise you and Miss Preston here were...close."

The way she said it clearly implied more and judging by the way Sophie tensed, she had caught up on it too.

"Oh yes, Miss Preston joins my students and I for the Literature Club that's held a few times a week. Although she had been missing a lot of meetings so I just came to check whether she was feeling alright."

Miller clenched her jaw and looked at Sophie with a fake smile.

"I didn't realise! Sophie tends to stay in the office most of the time, doesn't she?"

"Yes, I have to do the work assigned to me after all," Sophie said, in a rather snappish tone and the other occupants of the room reeled back in surprise.

"On second thought, you do look tired, Miss Preston. Perhaps you'd like to skip today's meeting to go rest? Everyone else has already gone back," Benedict said, flicking his eyes towards Miller's purse, clearly noticing that she was about to leave as well.

Miller looked as if she had swallowed something sour and had a hard time maintaining the fake smile on her face.

"Yes, Sophie. Do take care of yourself. I have to head out now if I want to reach home on time, you should also finish up here and go home."

And after saying that, she turned on her heels and walked away, presumably too angry to maintain false pretenses after Benedict had caught her overworking Sophie.

"She's not going to stop, you know," Sophie said, clearing away the sheets on her desk and looking up at him, "but thank you. At least she'll lay off me for a few days."

Benedict smiled.

"I have no idea what you're talking about. Although, the offer to join m–us for a reading is definitely open. We're having another meeting in a few minutes."

Sophie smiled shyly and nodded.

"I'd like that. It'll help me unwind a little."

Benedict tilted his head towards the door.

"Shall we, then?"

Sophie looked for her copy of this week's read and followed after him, locking her office.

On the way to Benedict's office, they made conversation and asked each other about their most and least favourite reads and Benedict realised that when given the chance, Sophie was not shy to talk about what she loved.

He looked at her as she spoke about her thoughts on a certain book, her eyes burning with passion to express herself, the upward curve of her lips as she talked about what she loved about it, her hands gesturing to get her point across and Benedict was mesmerized.

"—shouldn't have done that. What do you think?"

He blinked out of the trance he had found himself in while gazing at Sophie and saw her looking at him expectantly.

"Could you say that again?"

Sophie frowned, looking away

"Were you not listening?"

Only then, Benedict realised how it must have come across. She was probably thinking that he only humored her by asking and wasn't actually paying attention to her words.

"No, I was. I just like hearing your voice."

She looked at him again, eyes wide with surprise and this time it was him who looked away.

"Looks like we've arrived." They were in front of his office already. He hadn't even realised.

"Shall we?"

[blackidyll]

@qserasera so at first i was gonna put my replies in.. well, the replies section BUT THEN my ramblings got too long so reblog it is!!!!!

i love reading your thought process behind the mix.. i mean i love all your choices and the music themselves but also i can really see how much care and consider you put into picking the songs, and even arranging them into this coherent storyline.. i'm just super in awe because you've said a few times you're not super familiar with all their backstory (which is all over the place! and needs to be found in other charac's stories/questlines/readables/stuff that official HSR account posts but not are not actually in the game??) but you've definitely picked up the soul of dh and jy and the core of their relationship and that's both so impressive and also super great for me since i got this beautiful mix out of it <3333333

'can i imagine jing yuan and dan heng in a beautiful pining amv with this song??' is like the best way to find a jhj song omg i will Adopt This Method.

thank you for linking that video omggggg it is the most gorgeous OP i've ever seen? at one point there's even DRAGONS it's perfect, the visuals with the lyrics. totally seconding YELLING if anyone ever drew bits of this with jy and dhil.

yessssss jy's microexpressions in the 1.2 scene... he's all General-esque and doing his duty by the luofu during the crisis but all his microexpressions are just sooooooo revealing the way he looks at dh, the way he closes his eyes (cannot believe! the scene/camera actually pans to focus on dh and goes dark momentarily like /we're/ closing our eyes and experiencing the scene looking at dh for the first time through jy's eyes)

the line was 'If words alone were enough to change the heart, this world would be without quarrel' yes i know it because i'm obsessed with that whole scene

i LOVE the idea of jy and dh just having... parallel play dates.. dan heng would absolutely enjoy just doing his data bank updates while jing yuan does his Official Paperwork... i love domesticity (and also yes makeouts. but also these two are on a looooooooong slow burn in my books they're gonna be that couple that are Together and are very Touchy with each other, but also fail to kiss for ages).

and finally, re: your tags - your timing is absolutely impeccable because i've finally after like 3 months updated my jhj sequel wip. you are magic in many ways! magic music gatherer and also psychic for wip updates!

analemma; a dan heng x jing yuan fanmix

the stars move, and your eyes follow; distance, separation, reunion, longing

a gift fanmix for @blackidyll

Songs 1-12 approximately follow Honkai Star Rail canon backstory and later events; songs 13-20 are for relationship progression

{{LISTEN ON SPOTIFY}}

Song List below

{01 死生不怨 - 慕寒 | 02 Never to Return (ft Ashley Barrett) - Pyre OST | 03 阴- The Long Ballad OST | 04 The Light, Pt. II - Roc Chen | 05 Unstoppable -十七草 | 06 萧綦进城 - Monarch Industry/Rebel Princess OST | 07 Lost Times (feat Lambert) - Anna Ternheim, Lambert | 08 青玉案 - 云の泣 | 09 我愛的這個世界 - Till the End of the Moon OST | 10 The Lion's Heart - Audiomachine | 11 Rough Seas - Some Velvet Morning, Paul Jones | 12 Eye of the Storm - Ivy and Gold | 13 Mahogany - aeseaes | 14 云之羽 -Jason Zhang | 15 爱情把戏(BE MY LOVER) - Lambert凌 , 阿达娃 | 16 Heavy - Powers | 17 Hopeless Romantic - Pluto Koi | 18 Altar (Radio Edit) - machineheart | 19 永安 - Yong'An Dream OST | 20 Moonlight Sunrise - TWICE }